St. Elmo’s Fire – John Parr
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted, and I apologize for that. It’s been a long and stressful past few months. But I figured it’s a new year, so I would have my first post of the year be a sort of recap of last year, where I was, and where I am now.
I think an important part of dealing with mental illness is being able to look at progress over a large period of time. For example, I can look at the amount of changed from yesterday to today, and I might see failure. On a day to day scale, it’s heavily distorted. We might see that today was a bad day, but yesterday was a good day, and come to the conclusion that our lives as a whole must be a failure then.
But, looking at things from a large scale, we can more easily see what things have changed, and the positive aspects of our lives. It’s important to take time every so often and make sure that these things are being seen, and even more important to make sure that we keep a note of those things. I’ve mentioned before a notebook I keep of the important people in my life to make sure that they stay fresh and real in my mind. I’ve also been keeping a journal to note down things that are happening. I wasn’t the best at keeping up with it daily last year, but I at least wrote in it once a week. To start off this year, I reread the entries I made over the year.
At the start of last year, I was in a happy relationship that, at the time, I expected to be my last relationship. I was working as a manager at a Papa John’s, and working towards getting my own store. Everything seemed to be falling into place, and if you would have asked me where I’d be in a year, I would not have said “Back in school at North Dakota.”