I Fight Dragons – Just Decide
Life has a way of throwing curve balls at you. It’ll seem like you are just getting your life together, and things are working out. Pieces are falling into place, and then wham hits you where you least expect it. In my case, it’s a broken foot, which left me unable to work full hours, and then my boss declaring bankruptcy, leaving me with no job.
It’s one of the main reasons I’ve been neglecting the blog. I haven’t been up for doing anything related to it, or anything at all related to making myself any better. But that’s not how getting through things works. No amount of cuts on my legs, laying in my bed staring at the ceiling, not eating, none of that helps to make things better. It’s a dangerous game to play, and often has the opposite affect to what I’m hoping for.
The big thing that struck me though, is everyone looking at my broken foot, and jumping to help right away. Some of these people are the same who know about my mental condition, and my problems with it, but offer little or no help on that front. It left me confused, and hurt. I really had to wrestle with that.